Thursday, May 01, 2008

Almost

You almost feel bad for him as he drives up in his cluttered car filled with overflow from his one room apartment and remnants of a hotel clerk job at nights.

You almost feel bad as his son jumps out of the car and runs to his Mommy's waiting arms and through the door with nary a wave.

You almost feel bad as he steps into the kitchen and notices her haircut and how she has kept the weight off. And as he casually mentions to the former woman in his life who has completed her masters that the current woman in his life is struggling to complete her AA degree... online.

You almost feel bad as he looks behind her and sees homemade french fries baking and turkey burgers ready to be grilled all from the woman who never cooked dinner and as it turns out not because she couldn't but because she trusted him to nourish and feed the family.

You almost feel bad as he drives past the tree that they planted in memory of the daughter they never really knew and he pauses to see how it's bloomed this spring and as he drives away you almost feel bad as you realize he is crying the tears that you have long since passed. Almost...

But not quite.

18 comments:

cheesehead said...

Not even.

You're amazing.

(((ws)))

God_Guurrlll said...

you rock girlfriend

(o)

Peace and love,

mibi52 said...

Oh, yes, sister, Been there. You are not only surviving, you are triumphing (in a good way, not in a triumphalist way :-)

(o)

Identity Mixed said...

You are amazing. Why did he give all that away? He sucks!

Songbird said...

Some people. Not explicable.

mid-life rookie said...

Too many cliches come to mind. So I'll just go with (((WS))).

Chorus said...

I'm so awed by your strength.

1-4 Grace said...

You are so wonderful!
And totally brilliant...
(((((WS))))))

Kathryn said...

So proud of you...

Mary Beth said...

Not one bit. And you are awesome. Check out my word verification: wsmova

"Will Smama is a MOVA!"

Lorna said...

you have a heart - and that's something worth hanging onto - even if it hurts!

blessings and hugs - yeah I dare :O)

Mrs. M said...

Love you. Really.

zorra said...

((ws))

You rock, you mova!

(LOL Mary Beth)

Have a peace-full weekend.

Sue said...

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PK said...

Humhp... not even in my little pinkie toe... at all.

imngrace said...

You are a strong, courageous woman and I am doing the dance of joy for you as move on to healing from this yucky mess.

Listing Straight said...

Almost. Almost.

And thanks for knowing when a haircut is more than a haircut.

RevHRod said...

Almost, but not really. You are such a catch. Too bad he didn't understand all of that. Blessings to you and the boy with the groovy shoes!