Thursday, January 17, 2008

I do. I did. He did too.

You stare into each other's eyes, hands barely touching across barely eaten plates of dinner a few dates in, and you retrace your steps up to this point.

You grew up in the church from baptism to youth groups. He did too.

You hung out with friends in high school, never dated. He did too.

You only dated if it was serious. He did too.

You worked with children and youth in the church - both volunteer and paid. He did too.

Eventually he asks and you say yes.

You stood in front of over 500 people from two different church families to make a committment. He did too.

You went to Hawaii, Maine, visited family, got mad, got happy and lived life. He did too.

You experienced the ultimate low. He did too.

You experienced the ultimate high. He did too.



Soon, you will sign the divorce papers.
He will too.

26 comments:

cheesehead said...

(o)

Rev Dr Mom said...

I'm sorry. I know it's hard.

Rev Kim said...

I'm so sorry.
(((will smama)))

Cathy said...

I know this is so hard... as I have walked this walk. Praying for you.
Makes my heart hurt....

Grace, Every Day said...

My heart hurts, too.

But he will survive.

You will, too.

Not forsaken, not forgotten. Bruised and torn but soon healed and whole. And better for it.

Magdalene6127 said...

(((Will Smama))).

It really, really hurts. But it will not define your life forever. God has plans for you. I believe it so fervently.

DogBlogger said...

(((will smama)))

reverendmother said...

I'm sorry, my friend.

QuakerPastor said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you...

Rev Dave said...

Ouch. *]
Prayers for you.

IdentityMixed said...

Let me know when it happens and I will ceremoniously replace his picture with David Beckham's. The rest of us look too damn good for me to take down the picture completely.

But seriously. It's all the things he didn't do that have led to this - he didn't talk to his wife, trust in his wife, have faith in the sanctity of marriage, value himself... it's all of that. And please, as your marriage ends, do not let anyone (including you) place any blame on you.

will smama said...

Thanks. All of you. I guess I need to own that for some reason I thought life was fair, at least when it came to doing 'all of the right things' (at least according to what I had been fed since childhood).

I have just been really struggling this past week with the 'why' - why am I in an abyss?

sigh... this too shall pass.

Mary Beth said...

(o)

and

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thanks for sharing where you are.

Sue said...

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Songbird said...

(((ws)))

Lomagirl said...

And through it all, God is there.
I'm sorry this has happened in your life, but I think the broken toe post liturgy is really appropriate to this situation as well.

RevHRod said...

My word verification word is sfnkdgu which sounds like a great word to mutter at this point.
Sfnkdgu! I feel so bad for Will Smama! Sfnkdgu!

Please know that I faithfully read your blog because so often it makes me laugh out loud at the joyousness of life. You are such a delight. So don't forget it!

You are still in my prayers.

Susie/Nueva Cantora said...

The abyss will pass. It will, it will, it will.

But damn, I wish that made the abyss hurt less.

Rainbow Pastor said...

(((WS)))

Towanda said...

(((ws)))

more cows than people said...

(o)

Katherine E. said...

Heart hug to you...

Your writing in this post is riveting.

Scrivener said...

(o)

Lauralew said...

I read this and just groaned. So sad. Peace will come, though.

Lorna said...

:(

so sorry. As you say this will pass. But it hurts. It has to.

:(

Princess of Everything (and then some) said...

Honey, if you understand the *why* of what he has done...that means you would think like him and you do not want that.

I understand totally how you are feeling. I have been there. I promise you that,one day, you will look back and it will be alright.

I get scare now thinking about who my children would be today if he HAD stayed.

(((hugs you tight)))