Two days since the big meeting and I am still tired. And I used ALL of my sermon mojo up last week and just have plain nothing to give this week. Sigh...
I still feel really good about what transpired Monday night. It was slightly less than 2 hours filled with forgiveness, apologies, explanations, consequences and attempts to verbalize where we all go from here. It was weird to see her again as when someone does something so dastardly you expect it to affect their appearance but of course it has not, she looks fine. I also found that in a way it was good to see her. She was my friend and I have missed her.
This is part of what I verbalized to her - she should be part of the team helping me through all of this, not the one who started the meltdown to begin with.
Anyway... it is time to move on from that part of this drama. As I have shared with a few friends I need to focus my energies on having the great Christmas that The Boy and I deserve. And then at the end of January my marriage will officially end and that is going to take some significant energy as well. I don't have any to spare on a couple that is no longer an integral part of my life any more whether they worship here or not (and I don't think they will).
Next on the mental 'to do' list is to forgive TDH but to that I just have this question:
How do you forigive someone who you know is not done hurting you yet?